So I thought I would start a blog for all to see because they say when you are trying to lose weight you should share your journey with others. Let me start at the beginning. I can remember first being fat in 6th grade I wasn’t too big, but I felt chunky so I stopped eating. I got down to 100 lbs and it seemed like no one even noticed that I was skin and bones. I began gaining the weight back and the end of 8th grade. I have gotten bigger and bigger ever since then and it’s hard. I work a full time job and go to school, I suffer from depression and ADHD and I help my Grandmother who I live with. I am currently about 275 LBS and don’t get me wrong I am strong and have no health problems as of yet, but my confidence is severely lacking. Do I feel beautiful, no, would I date me, no. I see these women on tv and most of them look like teenage boys to me and that does not appeal to me what so ever. Some of my body idols are the Divas of the WWE and Coco (Ice T’s wife). They have curves, they are strong and they look healthy. I see the women the grace the pictures of Oxygen magazine and I wish that was me. So why can’t I be motivated to exercise and eat right, what is wrong with me! When will I have my moment that moment when something just clicks, when something within you changes. I have so many hopes and dreams and I know as long as I am the size I am they will never come true. This is not the body I’m suppose to be in.